A Twisted Up Frown, Disguised As A Smile

[acontrollist]

Rachel isn't one to make impulsive decisions. She usually takes as long as possible to think things through, weighing the pros and cons of each outcome.

She obviously didn't do that tonight, since she's standing in Sam Evan's doorway, a bottle of vodka in her hand.

Honestly, she doesn't know what else to do.  Ever since she hung up that picture that Sam drew of her a month ago, she and Bradley have been doing nothing but fighting (and having makeup sex, but that's neither here nor there). Tonight was the worst though.  There was screaming, name calling (whore was thrown both ways) and one of her favorite crystal vases is still sitting in 3 pieces on her kitchen counter. It probably didn't help matters that as soon as Bradley had left ("Where are you going?! We're not finished talking about this!" "Out. Don't wait up.") Rachel did the only thing she could think of, which was calling Sam, who'd told her to just come over.

She's not even sure how the vodka came into play, but getting drunk sounds really good right now.

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[dontcrysammy.livejournal.com]

"Yeah, don't worry, I've got it." Sam's already at the door, opening it to the delivery guy and giving him money in exchange for their food. The smell of Chinese wafts into the apartment. "Smells good..." He doesn't realize how hungry he is until his stomach rumbles at the prospect of being filled with chicken chow mein.

[acontrollist.livejournal.com]

"But I promised..." She pouts a little when the delivery guy leaves, retaking her seat on the couch and folding her arms. "I'm paying you back. I hope you realize that."

[dontcrysammy.livejournal.com]

"Stop pouting, your face might stay that way," he teases her before setting the bag of food down on the coffee table. He grabs a bottle of beer from the fridge and thinks about asking her if she wants wine or something, but then he remembers the whole being pregnant thing... "Do you want a glass of water?"

[acontrollist.livejournal.com]

"You made me." She replies childishly, sticking her tongue out at him as he walks into the kitchen. "Yes please!" She calls out in response to the water, opening her food and settling back on the couch to eat. She'd been hungry before, but now that she can smell the food she's starving. "This baby is going to make me fat, I just know it." She mumbles, taking a bite of her food.

[dontcrysammy.livejournal.com]

"Aren't babies supposed to do that?" Sam returns with her glass of water, sitting back on the couch and opening his box of noodles. "Besides, you're eating for two now."

[acontrollist.livejournal.com]

"But I don't want to be fat...its not attractive nor is it conducive to a lifestyle as active as mine." More pouting. But she hasn't stopped eating yet.

[dontcrysammy.livejournal.com]

"Since you're so active, I'm sure you can lose the weight quickly after the baby's born." He picks up the noodles with some chopsticks. "And I think you're attractive enough to pull off some extra weight."

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She blushes, taking a few more bites. "I hope so...but thank you..."

"How are Stacey and Stevie?"

[dontcrysammy.livejournal.com]

"They're good. They're visiting next month..." The mention of his siblings made him think whether he should tell his family about his situation with Rachel. He chewed silently on his food as he thought about it.

[acontrollist.livejournal.com]

"That's good. Hopefully I'll have an apartment by then so it won't be so crowded here." The same thought occurs to her but she doesn't bring it up. Pushing him would only scare him away and right now he's all she's got.

[dontcrysammy.livejournal.com]

"Right... Of course you'll want your own apartment." Except he was kind of expecting her to stay with him until the baby is born, and then maybe if it's his keep living with him... But he's aware his apartment isn't the biggest. He doesn't even have a spare room for her so it's more practical if she finds her own place...

He shouldn't be getting all sad about her leaving when she hasn't gone yet. He brings his bottle of beer to his lips and takes a sip.

[acontrollist.livejournal.com]

"Well you'll eventually want your bed back, I'm sure...and towards the end of my pregnancy, space in the bed would become scarce..." And she can't saddle him with all of this...responsibility, at least until the baby is proven to be his. It wouldn't be fair.

[dontcrysammy.livejournal.com]

"Rach, you make it sound like you're gonna turn into an elephant." He's pretty sure pregnant women sleep with their partners in bed without any trouble... Not that he's Rachel's partner, of course. "I get why you'd want your own bed though... And if you'd just let me take the couch, you'd have your own space now."

[acontrollist.livejournal.com]

"I'm not kicking you out of your bed, Sam. It's bad enough that I'm clogging up your apartment and I am not going to keep inconveniencing you!"

[dontcrysammy.livejournal.com]

Sam will just swiftly back off the subject since she's already turning into a scary, angry pregnant lady. "Okay, okay, calm down..."

[acontrollist.livejournal.com]

She blushes, avoiding his eyes now and being really focused on her dinner. "I'm sorry. I don't mean to let my hormones get the best of me, I just-....I meant what I said. You're doing me a favor letting me stay here and I don't-...I can't keep asking for more..."

Stupid LJ being down... is it tuesday yet? I want me some White Chocolate :P

[dontcrysammy.livejournal.com]

"Remember when I was living in a motel back in high school?" Sam reminds her. "I was determined not to let anyone find out about it or let anyone help me out. As far as I was concerned, it was my problem to deal with and no one else's. And then Kurt and Quinn found out, wouldn't take no for an answer, did what they could for me... and it made things so much easier when I stopped letting my pride get in the way. So please, just let me be your friend and help you, and don't ever feel like you're hassling me."

I really hope he didn't pick that.

[acontrollist.livejournal.com]

"That's different." She mumbles. "That's not the same thing. We were your friends and we wanted to help but we-...this-...what if it's not yours, Sam? The chances-..."

Me too.

[dontcrysammy.livejournal.com]

If it isn't his, there's every possibility that he'll be so disappointed he'll actually cry... Which is why he probably shouldn't get his hopes up.

"If it's not mine, I'm not gonna think I wasted nine months of my life looking out for you and the baby, if that's what you think." He feels like he's going around in circles with her and this conversation though and it makes him lose his appetite. "I'm going to bed," he announces, getting up from the couch and heading towards his bedroom. Or is their bedroom now? Either way, he goes to brush his teeth before bed.

Did you grab the parenting meme?

[acontrollist.livejournal.com]

"Okay." She lets the conversation drop, eyes still on her food as he stands to leave. She doesn't really want to eat but she forces herself to finish, knowing that not eating is bad for the baby.

But when she gets ready to go to bed later, she doesn't go into the bedroom. She falls asleep on the couch after she puts the leftovers in the fridge. She's tiny, so his couch actually has plenty of room for her to curl up and sniffle softly to herself until she falls asleep.

I lost the link D: But my brain couldn't seem to come up with a comment anyway, sorry :(

[dontcrysammy.livejournal.com]

Sam stays up waiting for Rachel, expecting her to come to bed as soon as she finishes her food. But she never comes and he goes to investigate, sighing when he finds her on the couch. That won't do at all.

Because she's so tiny, he easily scoops her up into his arms. He's had a lot of practice picking up his sleeping siblings and carrying them to bed without waking them, which is exactly what he does with Rachel, setting her down on the mattress. After tucking her under the covers, he climbs back into bed by her side.

Its cool :)

[acontrollist.livejournal.com]

She only stirs a little bit when he picks her up, but doesn't wake to protest, burying her face against his chest. When he climbs into bed on her other side, her body wastes no time seeking out his. She's a cuddler. She's always been a cuddler and she doesn't get to indulge much. She tucks her head against his shoulder, curling up beside him. "Mmm."

We WILL have parenting times though!

[dontcrysammy.livejournal.com]

Sam wonders if she's confusing him with Bradley and tries to pull away at first, but she's persistently snuggling up against him and in the end he gives up and humors her, draping an arm around her waist.

Yes!

[acontrollist.livejournal.com]

The fact that he cuddles her back kind of reinforces to her subconcious mind that this is not Bradley. He didn't like cuddling. She sleeps good for the first time since the night they slept together, curled close to him.

Her alarm going off in the living room wakes her at about 8:15 and she stirs, sitting up in bed. "Sam? We-...gotta go. Doctor."

[dontcrysammy.livejournal.com]

Good thing Rachel set an alarm since Sam completely forgot. And he really isn't good at waking up in the morning, which Rachel should know from the last time she slept over.

"Five more minutes," he groans sleepily into his pillow.