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[acontrollist]

The apartment is empty when Rachel walks in. Not that she expects anything different. They've been married for a little more than a month, but since their honeymoon, she's actually gotten to spend time with Noah that wasn't just the two fo them sleeping next to each other or shoveling takeout into their mouths before they passed out maybe a grand total of 3 times. 4, if you count the quickie on the couch, which Rachel doesn't really, since she's pretty sure she was asleep before he even pulled out and she's not sure she would have remembered it happened at all the next day if there hadn't been that bruise on her ribs.

Needless to say, the whole baby thing? Hasn't happened. She was ovulating last week and didn't get to see him at all (she woke up halfway when he got into bed, and then again when he got out to go back to work) those days. Rachel's frustrated to say the least and she kicks her shoes hard into the back of their closet, grumbling to herself.

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[but_idontlie]

This is almost better birth control than condoms; there's no chance of pregnancy because they aren't having sex. It's enough to make him grumpy as hell, but he doesn't jerk one out in the shower 'cause he wants his boys to be as potent as possible on the chance that he does get some uninterrupted awake time with his wife.

Fuck his life. He can't remember the last time they had sex.

"If you want." She's right; it is faster, and he's just being selfish by wanting her to sit in Jon's chair at the next desk over, not leaving his side. "I work my ass off, they can give me five minutes to see you." God knows they've called him in enough, sometimes an hour or two ahead of schedule to cover something. "I'll take lunch, meet you in the break room?"

All he has to do when he leaves is look up some information on this guy's aliases; they can't book him under "Tater Salad" but he knows it'll pop up on some record out there. Rob actually strolls in just as he's calling the Lieutenant back with the requested information, nodding at Noah. He waves him over with a hand, the phone clicking to the cradle. "M'takin' my lunch," he announces, and Rob nods understandingly. "Rach went out for Thai. Haven't seen her since we got back, bro. Drew and then she's working her ass off, too. I gotta see if I can get a couple days off and switch my vaca. Our parents are beggin' for a grandkid," which isn't entirely true, but it's a believable excuse. "If you got the time, can you switch with me?" You know I cover your ass all the time, he doesn't say.

He stretches out on the break room sofa, head at one end and feet at the other, waiting for Rachel; a smile relaxes the tension on his face when she walks into the room. "M'starving," he admits.

[acontrollist]

The line is short, since the Thai place is mostly empty. She's the only order placed, and it takes a little longer than she anticipated it would since they're at the point in the night where they're making dishes to order, having thrown out the day's surplus already. Not that Rachel minds. She didn't want to leave her husband before, but she's kind of really appreciating the moment to breathe.

She'd known, before she saw Noah, that she was tired of and upset about their circumstances. She just didn't realize how much so until she actually got to sit down and talk to him for the first time in days at his job. He hadn't even had time to take lunch yet and maybe it's the newlywed syndrome, but she has a bone to pick with the New York Police Department about that.

While she's glad for the breather, she doesn't realize that the tension from the past few weeks has settled back into her shoulders until she reenters the break room and moves to sit next to her husband, the tightness bleeding out of her back as she sits. "Obviously. Why didn't you take lunch?"

[but_idontlie]

"Too busy. Had a few people call out third shift," when he'd arrived, "and we got backlogged. I went out in a car all morning, hit some scenes. I volunteered to come back here, but we're still down a couple guys." Hopefully everybody who's scheduled for second shift shows up at four, 'cause he's going home.

He sits up straight on the couch, moving over to give her enough room as he wraps an arm around her waist to hold her close. "Pretty sure Rob'll switch with me so I can have Monday. I just gotta check that week, see if I can take it off. Even if you're working, I can hang out at the theatre with you, get shit done at home." Unwrapping his Thai, he closes his eyes, inhaling deeply for a moment. "Smells good," he murmurs gratefully, tilting his head to kiss his wife's temple. "How's Brody working out with the show? We come home, then you get stuck doing crazy rehearsals 'cause Mike fell off the chair like a damn pussy." Seriously, who can't stand on a chair? He hasn't gotten to spend any time with this guy yet other than in passing; considering that he's feeling his wife up every night, he'd like a better introduction than that.

"When shit calms down with the show, we should have a party," he suggests. It seems random, but they used to celebrate their Glee Club wins [sectionals, regionals, nationals] and the general camaraderie that they shared. This cast has been a family for the past year. They should get cake, and booze, and they can have it at their place... Especially now that Rachel won't be traveling with them after the show's run ends, he wants to do something.

[acontrollist]

Rachel just lets out an unhappy little hum in response to his answer. She understands. In his line of work, especially, things just happen sometimes. But that doesn't mean she has to be happy about it, and she's not. He's barely been getting enough sleep, she at least thought he was shoveling down decent amounts of food between calls. Or she'd hoped so, anyway.

He says he might be able to get Monday, and she smiles, but doesn't really say much else, not wanting to get her hopes up. Just their luck, Rob will fall off of a chair too and Noah will be stuck working Monday. "Noah, really. The whole week is unnecessary." Sure, when she gets off at night, it'll be nice to see him but he could be getting paid for those daytime hours. "Brody's doing great." Rachel nods. He's very talented, and she thinks maybe if it wasn't for Mike's experience, that Brody would have gotten Melchior from the very beginning. But Mike is still her friend, so her husband gets a gentle elbow to the ribs for his whining. "It wasn't his fault, Noah. He had allergies." The day before, a chair broke in rehearsal. A spare was pulled out of storage the next day just for a run through, dust got kicked up....Mike sneezed and lost his footing halfway into the chair.

Cracked his elbow and a rib.

"It's not going to." Rachel mumbles into her Thai. It's really not going to calm down, she doesn't think. After all, they're in the home stretch and everyone wants everything to be perfect. Even if they weren't rehearsing nearly every morning, everyone's putting every inch into the production. Rachel's not the only one who can barely keep her eyes open afterwards.

[but_idontlie]

She worries about him, he knows. When he doesn't come home when he's supposed to be home [there was that time his phone died midway through his shift and he had to stop at the store before heading home, and Drew actually picked his ass up and drove him home because Rachel was freaking out]. When he works an overnight. When a cop gets shot or injured in the line of duty but they aren't releasing names. Fuck, when he works and any kind of crisis situation occurs, or when they do a NYPD collab with ATF or ICE or something and somebody's out there doing surveillance and he literally can't tell her where he's going in the city.

He gets it. It really sucks, being a cop's wife. The way she has to take a backseat to his job is, at times, unforgivable.

[But if shit ever goes down, she's his first priority. If they ever have to clear civilians out of the city, she's on the first wave out. She'll be safe. He has that power, at least, to protect her.]

If he takes a week of paid vacation - he'd rather use it now, when he barely gets to see her, than have to use it during a week when she's pregnant and easily irritated and pelting him with pillows 'cause he hogs the bed or does something he doesn't realize is offensive. [He's just remembering the way Quinn was when she was pregnant. Heartburn, gas, weight gain, and nausea can make a normally awesome woman be pretty... not awesome at times.] "I'm gonna try and get it," he insists. [He'll have better luck at not being called in if he's off for the whole week. Vacation's vacation. A day off? They can pull him in if they need him, which is great for the bank account but shitty for the relationship.]

Allergies? Seriously? Whatever. Pussy. He has to admit, Mike wasn't particularly offensive for a guy who regularly had his paws all over his girl. "Brody a better kisser than me?" He asks because, well, the guy's probably been kissing Rachel a lot more than he's gotten to lately. And he's probably the only guy on Broadway who's straight.

Maybe he should send Mike a pizza and a get-well card.

"Sunday night after a show," he offers. Everybody will be wired after a performance, and Monday's an off day. "Come on, Rach. It'll be fun. Night drinking with a bunch of people? We haven't done that since right before we got married."

[acontrollist]

It's not the backseat that Rachel necessarily minds. She knows that when things go down with the show or during the few months that she was rehearsing nearly non-stop, that he had to take a back seat. On top of that, part of her job was pretending to have sex with and actually kissing other men. It sucks being an actress' husband too, and Rachel knows that. Not being his first priority against his job isn't really her major concern right now. It's the fact that on top of all of that, on top of their jobs shifting their priorities and stopping them both from having what they really want, his isn't even letting him take care of himself. Yes, she misses him and wishes they had more time together, but he puts his life in danger just setting foot in this building on a regular basis (who knows when some crazy is going to to come get revenge with an AK? The odds seem higher here than at a school or a movie theater). They can't let him get a hot dog from the corner? Seriously?

"Noah." Rachel huffs. He'd rather use it now, but she'd rather him save it. Use it later when he'd have a month, maybe even more, saved up. After the baby is born (because damn it, all they need is a couple of days. She knows it.) and he's really needed at home. A month for the two of them to get acclimated. That's her ideal. A month where he doesn't get called out in the middle of the night and wake the baby up on his way out (because she knows it'll happen. The amount of times he's slammed his knee into the doorframe trying to hop into his pants on the way out so he doesn't wake her up...)

His question upsets her much more than his questions usually do and she sits her food down on the table. "Why do you do that?" She snaps. "Why do you ask me things like that, Noah? Jesus, I already don't get to see you, can we have 10 minutes together without your ego getting in the way?" Maybe it's just the straw that broke the camel's back because she's sniffling. "I married you. Not Brody. If I wanted Brody, with everything that's been going on, if he was really better than you and I cared, that's where I'd be. Not eating halfway decent thai in a smelly police station with the husband I haven't seen in days."

"...Fine." She has to admit, it does sound fun. And Sunday would be a good night, since everyone's off Monday, and those with kids will be child free the next morning because of school.

[but_idontlie]

Yeah, it sucks being an actress's husband. He has to watch her kiss other men, let other men paw at her tits, pretend to have sex with other men, and that's only one show. Anybody else, and he'd be out, 'cause he didn't sign up for this.

But this has been Rachel's dream since before they met, and he knew what it might take, one day. She's achieving her dream every time she sets foot on that stage. As long as she's okay with it, and it stays onstage, he's supportive. [If he offered her the ultimatum - stage or him - depending on the day, it might be a toss-up. And while he might be an insensitive jerk at times, he's not that much of a d-bag.

"Rachel," he counters with a full mouth of noodles. He gets paternity. He has vacation to use. He'd rather take it now then save it up for later then get told he can't use it because somebody with more seniority already scheduled it. Maybe he needs a break from work, too.

He drops his Thai on the table and stares at her. "Whoa. Dial down the bitch for a minute." And that probably isn't going to go over well... especially as she begins sniffling, and it makes him forget her outburst in an instant. "Shhh, shhh," he soothes, wrapping his arms around her and folding her close to his chest. "I know, baby. I swear, I'll get time with you. I just - Shit's tough. We haven't seen each other in days and it's killing me. I just - I don't want you to have regrets with marrying me and shit after this. Feels like that asshole gets to see you more than I do," because he does, "and gets to kiss you and touch you for the show when I'm lucky if I get to kiss you when you're awake." So, fuck that, because - even if they've got Thai-breath and they're sitting on a couch that has seen better days, and they're sitting in the NYPD precinct break room, he's still gonna cup her jaw in one hand, brushing tears away with his thumb, and lean in for a slow kiss. It's more than he's gotten in too fucking long.

[See? He has good ideas.]

[acontrollist]

Rachel just lets it go. It's his paid vacation time after all, and if he wants to use it, fine. She's simply saying that there's no need to take it for her, even though taking Monday off was her idea so that they could spend her day off together. But maybe he can take Beth to the park or something.

She's opening her mouth to say something indignant and angry, one hand reaching to shut the top over her thai, the other grabbing for her jacket because no way is she staying here after that, not when she's here instead of at home catching up on much needed sleep, when he interrupts her to hug her close. She knows he hates this as much as she does. And she'd even be a little sorry for jumping down his throat if he hadn't called her a bitch. She breaks the kiss after a bit, still picking up her jacket. It's been a while and she just stopped ovulating and...she's mad at him, damn it! So she needs to get away from him before they start something they can't finish right here.

"I don't have any regrets. You just called me a bitch, and I still don't regret marrying you." She does kind of regret coming down here though, since at least when they weren't speaking, they weren't fighting either. She seals the top over her food, scooting to the edge of the couch to stand. "I'm tired."

[but_idontlie]

[Trust him, Rachel. This is the best way to accomplish what they both want. He'll take a Monday, and then he'll take the entire week when you think you're ovulating. He only hopes that you aren't too stressed to conceive. Maybe he'll pick up one of those ovulation monitor things, so they won't get their hopes up for nothing.]

Even using the word bitch in reference to her is so far out of line that it's practically in another universe, and he knows that. Fuck, he knows that. He's irritable and tired and he fucking knows that he was at work when she was ovulating and he's not sure when this baby thing went from not right now to borderline obsession, and he's pissed. At himself, at the situation, at the NYPD, at the world for refusing to stop for five fucking minutes so that he can be with his wife after all the shit they've endured.

[All that being said, she did practically attack him because he asked about Brody. He's fucking insecure right now, okay? He's that stupid little kid who just wants everything to be okay.]

"You jumped down my fuckin' throat," he counters mildly. "I'm sorry, Rach. I shouldn't have said - what I said. I - I love you, and this sucks." He's getting thinner, the muscles standing out on his frame and he's practically surviving on coffee. They're both stressed, sleeping little, working long hours, and it's taking its toll on both of them, on their relationship. "I should be home in a couple hours," he murmurs, reaching out to stroke her cheek again with gentle fingers, his gaze pleading. "Go, have some tea, go sleep. Call me when you get home so I know you made it safe, okay? - Unless you want one of the guys to drop you off. I can ask." I'd feel safer, he doesn't say, but he'll be content with just a phone call.

[acontrollist]

"I jumped down your fucking throat because all I want is 20 minutes with my husband without his ego jumping down my throat!" But whatever. She's not going to sit here and argue with him, not when she can see his coworkers walking around through the glass panes that make up one wall of the room. He apologizes, and Rachel just shakes her head a little, still moving to get ready to go. She's just 300% done with today. And about 25% done with tomorrow, to be honest. She doesn't react to his touch, too tired, too starved for it to pull away but still stung enough to keep from leaning into it. "Love you too."

Zipping her jacket, she shakes her head in response to his offer. "I'll take a cab." A cab driver won't come back and report to her husband that she cried on the way home, and she won't give in to the urge to yell at a cab driver about stupid hours and burst appendixes. She just needs to be anonymous for a little while.

"I'll see you...whenever." She can't even promise it'll be when he gets home, because she'll either be asleep or on her way out for rehearsal. And who knows where he'll be whenever she manages to fight her way through the crowd and back to their apartment?

do the next post and I'll have him come home during my next post <3

[but_idontlie]

It's not his ego. Asking if Brody's a better kisser? Fuck, he just doesn't want Rachel to forget about him, or to get off on Brody 'cause he's the guy she sees most often. [He's kind of fucking jealous. He should have auditioned for the show himself. Hell, he'd see his wife more that way.]

She allows herself a few moments' press of her cheek to his hand before moving away; his hand drops to his side. "Okay. Just... call me so I know you got back okay." The remainder of his shift will go easier if he knows that she's home, tucked into bed, sleeping. Maybe she'll feel better in the morning. He'll still be exhausted, but whatever. He's been awake for longer than 24 hours before now; this will just be another one of those times [he'll try to stay up with her]. "See you when I get home, in the morning," he murmurs, standing to walk her out, leaving his Thai on the table.

[acontrollist]

His ego, his jealousy, whatever. Either way. Rachel's point is that she hasn't seen her husband, really seen him in days and she'd really like to spend some time with him that doesn't involve him poking at her about some guy she's kissing for her job.

"Sit down, Noah. Finish eating." Rachel picks up her own Thai, shouldering her purse. Fight or not, he's still on his lunch break. A much needed one at that. They're both losing weight, but hers is more from stress and Noah's the one that gets all cranky when he doesn't eat. "I'll call you when I get home."

She doesn't cry in the cab. She sniffles a little, in the shower, but by the time she lays down, her head is pounding and her back feels like a column of knots and she's too tired to cry, too tired for nearly anything and she doesn't even realize that she's falling asleep until she's gone.

[but_idontlie]

At this point, he's screwed enough now that escorting her downstairs will just make her angrier. He's resigned to sinking deep into the couch and digging into his Thai as she walks away, out the door. It tastes good, sure. The noodles are hot and peanutty, the bite of the chili-garlic sauce making him thirsty. It'll have to keep him going through the remainder of his shift and through the ride home. [Honestly, it's fucking awesome. He needs to order from this place, like, all the time. There are few foods as awesome as Thai when you've been working for way too fucking long.]

He finally makes it home at six-thirty in the fucking morning after showering at work and taking the MTA. It's already light outside, and he stops for a Dean & DeLuca, knowing that there's a good chance that Rachel will be awake and hoping that she's in a better mood now than she was when she'd left the precinct. Opening the door, coffees in hand, he locks it behind himself with a soft click, sliding the chain in the lock and twisting the deadbolt.

He removes his shoes so that he doesn't make noise, setting the coffees on the table for a brief moment. The apartment is quiet, and he carefully walks toward their bedroom. He wears sweats - something he can easily sleep in, 'cause he keeps a change of clothes in his locker for days like this, something clean to wear after he showers - and dislodges his badge and sidearm from his clothing, placing them atop the dresser with the intention of moving them to the nightstand drawer later. "Rach, baby?" he murmurs, not wanting to wake her if she sleeps, but wanting to know if she's awake. "Brought you coffee."

[acontrollist]

The hard plastic click of his holster is what wakes her. She's on her side, back to the door and so she hears his voice but doesn't turn to look at him immediately. Shifting a little, she cranes her neck to glance at the clock on her bedside table. Her alarm won't be going off for another hour, but she can already feel the sleep hangover settling in behind her eyes so trying to go back to sleep is useless. Her hair's come out of his braid, so she's pushing it out of her face as she sits up, swinging her legs out of bed. Coffee does sound good...

"Thanks." She stretches, turning slightly on the bed to look at him. The bitch thing still stings a little a lot, and right now it's not doing much besides irritating the hell out of Rachel. She's got an extra hour before she needs to start getting ready for work, they're both awake, and she can't shake her hurt feelings about last night. Great timing. Really. They could be baby making right now. God.

"So..." She runs her fingers through her hair, trying to work out some of the tangles. "How was work?"

[but_idontlie]

He moves to sit beside her, a coffee in each hand; he holds hers patiently while she rakes her fingers through her mussed hair. "Long," he answers honestly. "I missed you. Shitty because I was there all day, all night." He hesitates. "And I didn't get to fix us before you left. M'sorry, Rach. I know this sucks for you, and I totally get why you're angry about it." He is, too; he's just quieter about it, but that's the way he's always been with his emotions. He doesn't talk about them, not really, and especially when there's not a damn thing he can do about the situation.

"How about you, you sleep okay? M'sorry I woke you up."

[acontrollist]

And Rachel's the exact opposite. She's never had much of an emotional filter, and though she's gotten more tactful the older she's gotten, she still loses control of it when she's angry or tired. And lately, all she's been is tired. She takes her coffee, fitting her hands around the sides and nodding a little. "I'm just tired. We both are. And I shouldn't have gotten upset about the Brody thing." Granted, bitch shouldn't even be in his vocabulary regarding his wife, but Rachel can at least own up to her part in making him mad now.

"I didn't even realize I'd fallen asleep." She admits, turning to look at the clock again. "When do you have to go back in?"

[but_idontlie]

"It just sucks, knowing he's with you all the time, getting to do the shit I should be doing to you," he tries to explain, his voice quiet. It's a mixture of jealousy and frustration. He knows that the guy isn't going to make a move on his wife, and - even if he did - Rachel is here, with him, for a reason. She's always been with him. That won't change just because they're going through shit. But to know that work takes him away so long and so unpredictably, and when he thinks, What's Rachel doing right now?, his thoughts are filled with Brody kissing her, touching her, making her gasp and moan. Even if it's just for the show, just pretend, he's still the one sitting at a desk or riding patrol while Brody gets to pretend with Rachel.

He's fairly certain that it would bother her, if the shoe were on the other foot. If it was Rachel working her ass off in a job she alternately loved and hated, and he got to spend his days working with an attractive co-star, touching her and kissing her and getting a point-blank view of her body.

It's that another guy gets to do this stuff, and he hasn't been able to do it. They either work opposite schedules or they're too fucking exhausted to even begin.

"First shift tomorrow," he murmurs, taking a sip of his coffee and following her gaze to the clock. I'm free 'til eight a.m. tomorrow. Fuckin' sweet. "So, I have today and tonight with you, then I gotta be up and out the same time as you for rehearsal tomorrow. I'm not the only person covering Drew, so it's not gonna be doubles and overtime every day." It'll probably kick his ass, but he's fully prepared to stay up with Rachel and fall asleep on her dressing room couch when she's onstage, catching a nap during rehearsal, a nap during a show, before sleeping with her when the show is over for the night.

[acontrollist]

"He's not doing anything to me, Noah!" She throws her hands up a little. "That's my point. I don't care about Brody. I don't. You're the one who makes such a big deal out of it." Sitting her coffee on the table, she turns to face him. "He's not even really kissing me." Because stage kissing? Nothing like the kind of kisses she gets from her husband. "Brody's my friend and a good majority of the time, he's not even hard and he's got the hots for Amanda anyway."

Nodding, she picks up her coffee to take another sip. It's Wednesday, so the shows should be thin, meaning she might actually make it home around 10:30. Which is actually pretty good. "Good. You'll actually get some sleep." And they'll maybe actually get to spend a little time together. "I'll try to get through the crowds at a reasonable time..."

[but_idontlie]

"I know you don't," he returns calmly. "Even if nobody's getting off on it, he still gets to do shit to you that I don't." She faces him; he reaches one hand forward, gently sliding it beneath the top of her pajamas to cup a bare breast in his palm, stroking over her nipple with his thumb. He can feel it harden beneath his hand, the skin drawing tight, and he exhales shakily. "The last time I got to do that was when we got back from our honeymoon," he murmurs. And, even though it means nothing, even though it's pretending, Brody gets to do a rougher version of that every night.

[Also, he's a classy bastard. Amanda's married.]

"Can I come with?" He's fully prepared for her to say no, but he doesn't really give a shit. If he has the time to be with her, he'll take it. "I can crash on the couch when you're onstage. I'll bring the iPad. Swear I won't bug you, I don't wanna stay here all day by myself when I could be with you." For coffee breaks, lunch breaks, times when somebody else is rehearsing a scene and she's got some time to waste.

[acontrollist]

Her mouth's half open when he reaches over and up her shirt and she realizes, for a split second that she's about to ask him what he's doing. She hasn't actually questioned him touching her since they were in high school and the question dies in her throat (as it should), coming out as she shaky breath instead, her hands moving up to wrap around his biceps as she leans forward into his hand. "I know. It doesn't-...this is better, though."

"You really want to sit at the studio all day? You'll be bored out of your mind." Well...not exactly, probably. Her coworkers really like him, and since some of them are going on the tour, they're not as hardcore as Rachel right now. So they'll probably talk to him. Rachel, though, will likely only acknowledge him in passing, focused on trying to stay in Wendla's headspace between shows and rehearsals.

[but_idontlie]

"Shit, Rach," he murmurs, his pupils dilated and voice low. His hand never drops away; his other hand slides over, pushing the waistband of her pajamas down slightly to cup a bare hipbone. "Baby, I -" He can't complete the rest of the sentence, swallowing past a sudden lump in his throat. This is the most contact they've had in days. It's bullshit, really. They're married. They're trying to conceive. They should be fucking like bunnies.

"I'll sleep," he offers. "I need the sleep. I just don't wanna do it here while you're there." It doesn't bother him that she'll be busy, rehearsing or performing; he can find things to do.

[acontrollist]

"Yes." She doesn't know what exactly she's saying yes to right now, but she's nodding, repeating that one syllable and trying to pull off his shirt with one hand and tugging at her own with the other until she finally gives up on him and uses both hands to yank her shirt up over her head and tossing it behind herself. "Yes, yes, yes..." It's the most he's touched her in...God, she can't remember but it's like someone opened the floodgates and she's gone from nothing to need want need, scooting closer to wrap her arms around his neck and seal her lips over his.

"It's kind of loud and the couch isn't very comfortable but...you're welcome to come along, if you want." She won't mind having him there, she just knows that Noah kind of turns into a little boy when he's bored.

[but_idontlie]

Sex won't fix their argument. It's not a substitute for apologies or talking or even spending time together [they've been deprived of that; time is the only cure]. With that in mind, though, this is long overdue.

She fumbles with his clothes and gets nowhere; he's taking too long to pull his hands from her body and she's too fucking desperate, her hands trembling in her impatience. Her shirt hits the floor [she gave up on his clothing], and he pulls himself away, just for a moment, to yank his t-shirt over his head and toss it on the ground, shove his sweats down around his thighs and ankles, before he grabs her naked body in his arms again, holding her tightly. "Fuck, yes," he manages, his mouth meeting hers, pressing hungry kisses to her lips, the curve of her jaw, her chin, trailing down her neck and the throbbing pulse there... "Baby, need." Fuck ovulating. He just wants his wife.

"I'm fuckin' tired enough that it won't matter," he tells her honestly. "I'll sleep and when I'm not sleepin', I'll fuck around on the iPad, watch a movie or something. I've been up for, like, two days or something. I'm gonna crash."

[acontrollist]

Rachel isn't worried about the argument right now. They were both wrong, they've both apologized, and being okay with it isn't going to happen immediately just because of that. But that doesn't mean they can't get started with the making up. After all, after apologies are doled out, you're supposed to start forgiving.

Is she wrong for thinking make up sex is a super fun part of that?

He takes care of his own shirt and sweats while she wiggles out of her panties, up on her knees and poised like she's nearly ready to leap, propelling herself forward the second he reaches back out for her. "I'm right here." She needs too. She's not thinking about getting pregnant, not right now, not with her husband so close for the first time in what feels like forever. They can fool around later. Foreplay and sweet nothings and yada yada but now? Right now, she wastes no time grabbing at him, tugging to lay down on the bed.

[but_idontlie]

He's always been a fan of make-up sex. It's one of the best parts of arguing or fighting. But... shit, this is the one relationship he never wants to fuck up. With Santana, sure. He didn't give a shit. But Rach? God, he'll sit there and be emo until she's satisfied, just as long as they can be good again.

"I know." For the first time in forever - hey, they're both awake, and they have enough time to get naked. [Somebody better pinch him 'cause he's pretty sure this is a dream.] He crawls onto the bed, dropping onto his stomach and knocking the breath from his lungs. Rach. He doesn't speak; he's too busy kissing her, rolling to his back, tugging her to straddle him. His hands move between her thighs, encouraging, stroking; he takes himself in hand and rubs between her thighs, impatient, feeling her dripping as he kisses her.