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[It takes some time for her to drag herself out of her room climbing over all the boxes and crap, but she manages and opens the door.] Woah, woah, woah. Where's the fire?

I didn't know where else to go and I-...what's with the boxes?

... we're redecorating the living room. [But now she's concerned.] What's up?

Noah brought home a marriage license today, on his lunch break. [Well then Rachel will pace around the boxes.]

... wait, what?

[Oh, she didn't tell you about that?]

[That's right, the last time she saw you was the afternoon after you guys went out and there'd been more important things going on.]

We talked about it the morning of the last day I saw you but I didn't-...it's real now and I think I'm having a panic attack...

[Coco was definitely not informed of any of this. Why was she not informed of this!!]

Wait, wait, wait. You're getting married?

[She nods.] Yes. But it's not like that, it's-...it's just us here. We have one other person from home here, but he's in school and still technically dependant on his parents.

We decided it'd be best if we got married so that I'd have access to healthcare and he'd have a-...uhm. [And this clearly makes her uncomfortable.] a power of attorney...if something happens...

Congratulations? I take it you two aren't doing anything to fancy, then, huh? When's the wedding?

Okay, so, what's stressing you out, specifically?

Absolutely not. We're going to go to a Justice of the Peace and we're not telling anyone from home, not even our parents. No rings, no honeymoon, none of that. It's really not even technically a wedding...

I don't...I don't know. I...probably has something to do with this being the reason my very first serious relationship ended.

Rachel, even if it's not technically a wedding, it's still marriage. That shit's all sorts of frightening.

What happened with your last relationship?

He proposed right before New Years in our senior year, when I was sure New York was going to happen. He wasn't-...he was a small town boy. Which made sense, because that's where we were but he wanted to get married and have kids and I want that too, don't get me wrong but there are other things that have to happen first for me.

Honestly, we had more problems than just me trying to go to New York. We were on and off since Sophomore year and it just-...we had more problems than me leaving. And he even admitted that, after I told him no...

[She should probably mention that this was Noah's sorta kinda best friend, huh?]

So, regardless of everything, it wasn't the right fit. You can't blame yourself for that. I mean, we can't help who we fall in love with and just because the feelings are real doesn't mean the relationship's going to work. You simply stayed in the relationship as long as it was going to work. Anything more, and you... well, you wouldn't have been very happy, would you?

So, what does Noah want?

That's what I tried to tell him. I'd probably be married and pregnant in Ohio right now if I'd gone against my gut, honestly.

Noah wants...well. Obviously, he wants to get married. But honestly, until he asked me, I didn't think he even believed in marriage. I know he wants children, though. And like I said, I do too, but I want to be married first and I want a Tony before I get married and Noah's made it very clear that he wants that too before we genuinely get married with the wedding and telling our parents and all that stuff.

So why are you so worried, Rach? I mean, it's just some sham wedding so you two don't have to worry in case something happens. Treat it as such and, if things change, learn that your views are going to have to change, too.

I'm not worried about it not working out, so much. I don't even think its the marriage that's freaking me out, so much, it's...

He keeps saying it's "In case something happens," and it...it feels weird and I've never been a superstitious person but I can't help feeling like getting married in case something happens is..like...giving the universe permission to mess everything up.

... honey, I get why you're worried but at the same time? I don't really think you have a reason to be. I know Noah didn't exactly pick the safest career, especially in New York City, but nothing bad is going to happen.

You just have to have faith.

I know, I know, you're right. And then there's the whole...this is so different from before, like I said. When I said no before, I wanted to wait for a Tony before I got married because I thought my dreams were more important than relationships. That's what I always thought.

And now its like...I know if I don't get my Tony first I'm going to be too distracted. And loving someone that much is...its new, you know?

But you're right. You're absolutely right, everything is going to be fine.

Love seems to have a way of surprising us. But trust me, Rachel. If being a Tony winner is your fate, and I'm certain it is because you're amazing, marriage isn't going to get in the way of that.

Everything happens for a reason, you know?

You got this, lady. You got this. Don't even worry about the rest of it.

Audition season is about to explode and I'm so excited. This is going to be my year, Coco, I can feel it. Romeo and Juliet is getting amazing reviews, after all.

But I suppose the next order of business is to ask if you'd be my witness? I believe I need one and Noah needs one.

See? If it's meant to happen, it'll happen. You're going to get your big break, Rachel. Don't worry about the rest. It's my new rule to live by.

[Eyebrows go up.] You want me to be there? I mean, of course, I'd be happy to. I guess I just sorta thought maybe you'd already have someone in mind?

It's a very good rule.

I had you in mind. I don't have a lot of really close friendships and you're honestly the only one I have that didn't result from or involve some sort of antagonism.

Then consider it a done deal. I would be honored to be your witness~

[Squealing and hugging goes here.] Thank you so much!

[Oh. Hello, squealing, hugging Rachel. How are you? Hugs are returned.] Oh, come on. It'll be fun. It's not like you're asking me to give you a kidney.

So... when's the big day, then?

It will be. And I know it's not a real wedding, but we still have to go buy you a dress!

We're not sure yet. Noah has to see when the next time he can get a chunk of time off of work is. But you'll know in plenty of time beforehand.

You, too~ Have you thought about what you want to wear?

As long as it's before or after my vacation, we should be in good shape. I'll be there with bells on~

Well when's your vacation, so we can plan?

I haven't...I know I want white, though. I mean...I'm marrying the only man I've ever been with so I could still technically call virgin...

Within the week leading up to Christmas, I suspect. [ooc: I'm preeeetty sure this falls in before she and Ludwig actually settled things regarding him going with her for the holidays, so the date was still up in the air. Actual dates are Dec. 21-28.] I haven't exactly booked my flight yet, so...

Pfft, such an outdated tradition. If I ever get married? I'm totally going to wear a white dress if I find one I love. Lord knows I'm no virgin.

Oh, it won't be then, I know as much.

Exactly! Its our day, we can wear what we want! I can't afford a wedding dress, though...it'll probably be a white prom dress or something.

Oh, yes you can. I'm buying it. [She holds up a finger, cutting any impending Rachel complaints.] Not another word about that. Just pick out the dress and I'll handle it, okay?

You are not buying me a wedding dress, Coco! I'd rather wait for that until I really get married anyway.

So, pick something cheap, then. Either way, I'm buying you a dress. It's a not-so-real wedding gift.

[Rachel just laughs.] We'll see, we'll see. We have to decide on a color for you, though! Maybe dark blue...

I look good in dark colors, supposedly. According to Jen, they make me look like Snow White. I think that's supposed to be a compliment.

They do. It is supposed to be a compliment. Snow White was fairest in the land, and all.

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Did you see the backdated note?

i did!

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sorry, someone commissioned me last minute to put together an album cover. replies will be slow.

That's awesome! Anyone I'd know?

nah, just a friend of a friend -- demo album, lol.

Still awesome!

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